Cognitive Dissidence

While everyone is buying up toilet paper because everyone else is, and they don’t want to be without, it’s becoming apparent to me that denial is strong in all of this behavior.

Look. I’m not faulting those of you cracking light. I’m not chastising those of you hoarding. We are in uncharted territory for this day and age.

So, if your only way of dealing with the approaching pandemic is to make jokes, I understand. If you are caught up in the fear that you won’t have enough toilet paper or food, I understand.

See, it hasn’t sunk in yet.

It’s not going to be about not having toilet paper. It’s not going to be about shortages. It is not going to be about the inconvenience of being stuck in the house for weeks because you or someone you live with have the virus.

And really, all I hear are people focused on the inconvenience of isolation. The inconvenience of preventing the spread of the virus. The United States has been so long removed from epidemics and pandemics they’ve forgotten their number one outcome – death.

People are going to die.

Let me repeat that.

People are going to die.

A large number of people are going to die.

Some of them will be people you know.

People you are acquainted with, work with or see regularly at the checkout line. They might even be someone you are close to, care about, and love.

Humans as a general rule fear the unknown because – well, the unknown might kill us. We’ve developed coping mechanisms to ease the anxiety and fear of the unknown. We develop avoidance strategies because anxiety and fear are uncomfortable.

But now? Oh, now we are facing something entirely more uncomfortable. We are not facing the unknown. We are facing the known. We are facing death.

Illness has been the bane of humans since we first walked upright. We have an instinctive knowledge that illness can mean death.

The rest of the world is six weeks ahead of us in instituting measures to reduce the spread of the virus. Six weeks ahead in testing, tracking, and allocating resources effectively and efficiently. Yet, look at those numbers in China, Italy, and Germany. And since the virus originated in the wet markets of China in 2019, we need to be very concerned. In 2018 2.9 million Chinese traveled to the United States. The numbers for 2019 are not yet in, but I suspect it is not much lower than for 2018.

And we are 6 weeks behind in testing. Six weeks behind in testing, tracking, and allocating resources effectively and efficiently. We don’t have the facts. We don’t know how many people are truly infected. So we may be facing the known instead of the unknown, we are unaware as to the full aspect of what we are facing.

Talk about living in interesting times.

Ironic, isn’t it.

The Flu

Just Keep Running

Just a little short of two weeks ago I came down with the flu. Not last Tuesday, but on Tuesday before. I had supper and within a half-hour, I started to feel a tickle in the back of my throat. Buy the time I went to bed I was fully ill. I spent the next 31.5 hours in bed. I slept the entire time. I had the electric blanket set at high and yet I didn’t sweat. Nor did I get up to go to the bathroom or drink anything. I did manage to get up for a bit on Thursday, but I still slept for another 14 hours. I managed to go to work on Friday. But over the weekend I was achy and exhausted. Even worse so on Monday. I went to Urgent Care and was also diagnosed with a sinus infection.

It’s been six days since I started taking the antibiotic. I still have a bit of a cough, but I have been sleeping for a full eight hours a night. Even more surprising is that I’ve been getting over 3 hours of a deep sleep, and 7 hours of quality sleep. I’m thinking that’s due to the Tessalon Perle, or Benzonatate.

Anyway, today I felt well enough to resume exercise. I managed to run 2.66 miles in 30 minutes. Not bad considering I haven’t exercised in 13 days. I’m hoping I’ve recovered enough from the flu to be able to continue running.

Something’s Wrong

There’s something wrong with me. Seriously. I’m kinda scared. I managed to finish all my school work yesterday, with a simple question and response assignment finished this morning after I ran.

This is not like me. I wait until the last minute. I don’t start on my assignments until I have just a little less time than is necessary to complete them. It’s like I’m suddenly confident in my ability to do my school work.

I’m seriously scared. I need a hug.

Oh, and yes, I’ve been maintaining at least a 2 to 4 day per week exercise routine. And I’m journaling every morning as well.

Wow, I think I’m terminal. That’s it, call it. Pull the plug.

Morning World

Just Keep Running

So, I’m up and at it early on a Sunday morning. I’ve finished my morning routine of mindfully writing a journal entry, read my horoscopes, and made some chess moves at Gameknot. Now I’m going to get ready to put some time on the treadmill. After that, it’s a run to the store to replace the Cream of Chicken soup I accidentally grabbed yesterday with a can of Cream of Mushroom soup that’s needed for the pork steaks. Once I get home with that, I am going to isolate myself into my office and get my school work done. 

Online Social Connections

I’ve been contemplating a total switch from Facebook to either my blog or to MeWe. The problem as I see it is the inability of stand-alone blogs to connect to others with ease. The success of Facebook was its ability to allow others to connect without the hassle of running an entire back end program.

Honestly, this is going to be a future and longer post. But for now, I don’t have the time. I’ve got coffee to drink.